this was me when i was

depressed.

this was me when i was

fat.

this was me.

this is still me.

she is still me

except that i am stronger

now.

thats it.

i have been sososooss

sososososoooooo

low.

i have been so low

i have almost been

dead

.

i almost killed

myself in college

bc i didnt want to

be alive.

i almost killed myself

in college

bc i felt so godDAMN

alone and

unheard

and

lost.

this was me when i was

depressed,

and i am no longer afraid

to show her off for

she is beautiful, too.

i was so lost.

i was so lost and i was

so hurt and i was so

fucking depressed.

but now i yam okay!!!!

i yam okay bc i decided

that i would be okay!!!!

and so i am.

i am okay bc i am whole

and i am whole w everyone

i am whole w you guys,

fam.

we need each other.

do not run if you are

depressed now bc

you will. not. be.

depressed.

forever.

you will not.

i promise you

if you work for it —

if you grow/

and learn/

and REMEMBER?

if you do the work —

you will overcome.

///////

as much as id LIKE to

do the work for you

[and in some cases????

tbh????

w some of you????

w two of you

especially recently —

w two of you

unlucky lucky folks

recently,

{im sorry, vic]

[im sorry, ethan]

i tried to do

the work for you.

i tried to show my

full self to you and

drag/pull/beg

you to join me

in a way that

was scary

and

bad

for you.

that was scary and bad

for you and,

vic and ethan?

im so sorry i did that.

im so sorry i scared you.

im so sorry i didnt understand

yet. i went about it the

wrong way at first, and

for that im really sorry.

im sorry if i scared you

or hurt you.

im so friggen sorry,

my dudes.

please know that

i never want to scare you

or especially hurt you.

i never want to do that

to you two or anyone

but right now

especially you two,

bc you two are two

of my absolute faves,

but i will do it again

probably/definitely.

i will do it again.

i will be scary

and bad

again

probably/definitely,

and im sorry for

when i do that, too.

im really sorry

for when i do that.

but, please, when i

do do

(HAH! doo doo.

fucking loser

writing “doo doo”

lmfaoooo)

that again?

when i

do hurt you or scare

you again? please know

that i just want to

love you.

i just want to love you.

i just want to love you

both — thanks for not

shutting me out when

i was too much to handle.

i mean,

but honestly? if i felt

compelled to speak to

you in the way in which

i did? then that means

you’re strong enough to

handle it. you both are

so. strong.

fuck, are you guys so string

cheese fuckinnnnuh strong.

(everyone is)

(but right now im just

talking to my ethan and vic)

thanks for not saying im

not too much when ive

been told im too much

so

so

sosoosososososososos

many times.

wow, thank you.

thank you for not leaving

me, you FIERCE and

BEAUTIFUL WARRIORS.

THANK YOU BOTH.

SO MUCH, WOW.

thanks, fam.

whenever someone would

say i was too much,

it hurt me.

deeply and

truly. to my mf core,

mane. but thats okay,

and i am okay.

thanks for helping

us all be okay, vic

and ethan. u guys

knock my friggen

sOCKS off

(LMFAO ETHAN

LITERALLY ACTUALLY

KNOCKED MY SOCKS OFF

BC I USED TO WEAR SOCKS

W MY TEVAS BC I DIDNT

LIKE MY FEET BUT NOW

I DONT WEAR SOCKS

ABAHAHHA BUT ALSO NOW

I LIVE IN CA AND ITS TOO

HOT FOR SOCKS SO ITS

HOWEVER U WANNA LOOK

AT IT BUT I REally like

not wearing socks

bc i like my wide ass

motherfuccccckinnnnuhh

feet. and i rock mf tevas,

mane. i have like 7

pairs hahahaha and

thats cool cool cool.

//////

if u feel me then u

feel me and i think

u might just feel me

on this one.

//////

but you two have

never said that to me.

youve told me when to

slow down, for sure!!!!

youve told me to slow

down. and i thank you

both for that. thank you

for rolling w me.

u rock. oorah.]

//:://////

and in dragging

fearlessly but waaaay

too loudly?

i have failed miserably

and openly.

bc OBVIOUSLY

thats not how it works.

OBVIOUSLY you have

to be the one to do

the work for yourself.

you can bring a horse

to water or whatever

but you cannot

make that mf horse

drink.

drink, fam. drink.

drink up.

/////

cum, dude.

cum on in, my dudes

bc the water is foiiineeeee

and cumming is a lot

of fuggin fun

😏😏😏😏

/////

pc: http://www.cprots.com

ty, cole ily boo

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