sometimes
i run to make
my brain
shut up
and
sometimes
i run to think
through
things
and
sometimes
i run to
do
both
//
Month: October 2019
i am in the wind;
i am passing through/
droning; drifting
drowning
dripping
crowning the queen
of quitting on
herself
knottings & not-tings
its not
that i dont
want to
do
something/
anything/
things,
its
that
i cant
right now.
and thats
okay. its
okay to be
in this place.
its okay. im
okay. itll
end.
//
right?
trapped
in a trance of
apathy/
thinking —
always thinking/
bludgeoned
by anxiety
today it sucks to live in la. today it sucks to live so far away from my family. today sucks.
man i just wanna love my body why is it so hard for me // im tired of hating pieces of myself — its so, so much wasted energy. but its also piles of baggage and disordered thinking. and itll take time. and thats okay. and im okay. and this run was okay.
triangles & tree rings 