i cant put my phone down

i cant face my mind

i feel sick

i really did think i knew you.

i thought i understood.

i thought i saw your colors.

but i was wrong —

again.

i cant change you.

i wouldnt want to.

but, God, i wish youd change yourself.

today, i took a stand.

i did the uncomfortable.

i did the painful —

looking forward and focusing on me.

i did the right thing.

i am better now and closer to who im meant to be