sometimes
saroquel
doesnt
knock
me
out. and
sometimes
melatonin is
no help, either.
and its rlly fcked
up bc, seriously,
how on earth
am i still
awake
after 100mg
of saroquel and
10mg of melatonin,
like, that should
take down
a bear.
but,
no.
im awake.
again. but its
worse than just
being awake
bc the
saroquel
kinda, like,
paralyzes me
so i can
still
think
but i cant
really move
and sometimes
i cant tell whether
im awake or asleep so
i basically start
hallucinating
which is
not fun
at all
and
its not
restorative
in the slightest
bc im not actually
asleep and its all just
entirely stupid.
and im very
much
over
it.
//
ily brain
but i
dont ily
tonite