walls spinning —

white walls/

tiles/

water

gasping

swallowing

choking —

am i choking?

//

slick/

spinning

cant breathe/

cant see/

water

//

nails digging

into my throat

and my thighs

clutching

anything/

something.

//

i never have nails/

am i bleeding?

//

sharp

//

spinning/

dont pass out.

dont pass out.

rae.

hold on.

keep holding on.

dont pass out.

dont.

dont fall.

//

its gonna hurt if you fall

its gonna hurt/

it hurts

//

am i crying?

are these tears?

//

am i breathing?

//

wheres the air?

wheres my air?

wheres the air?

//

whats wrong?

//

sharp

//

keep breathing

keep gasping

keep trying

//

something will work\

something will break this\

something/

sharp/

//

something will work/

//

or it wont\

//

keep trying/

//

dig deeper/

am i bleeding?

i never have nails

//

focus on this song.

focus.

dont pass out.

dont fall.

hold on.

focus.

//

come back —

focus on this song.

/forget the world/

bring it back.

/forget the world/

focus on this song.

//

spinning

//

youre okay.

///

i got water up my nose,

but i didnt pass out.

and i didnt fall.

///

whats wrong?

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