walls spinning —
white walls/
tiles/
water
gasping
swallowing
choking —
am i choking?
//
slick/
spinning
cant breathe/
cant see/
water
//
nails digging
into my throat
and my thighs
clutching
anything/
something.
//
i never have nails/
am i bleeding?
//
sharp
//
spinning/
dont pass out.
dont pass out.
rae.
hold on.
keep holding on.
dont pass out.
dont.
dont fall.
//
its gonna hurt if you fall
its gonna hurt/
it hurts
//
am i crying?
are these tears?
//
am i breathing?
//
wheres the air?
wheres my air?
wheres the air?
//
whats wrong?
//
sharp
//
keep breathing
keep gasping
keep trying
//
something will work\
something will break this\
something/
sharp/
//
something will work/
//
or it wont\
//
keep trying/
//
dig deeper/
am i bleeding?
i never have nails
//
focus on this song.
focus.
dont pass out.
dont fall.
hold on.
focus.
//
come back —
focus on this song.
/forget the world/
bring it back.
/forget the world/
focus on this song.
//
spinning
//
youre okay.
///
i got water up my nose,
but i didnt pass out.
and i didnt fall.
///
whats wrong?