the sun was being stupid my brain is being stupid everything is stupid

today, i am pissed ofF —

im pissed bc i have to deal w this bipolar SHIT.

im pissed bc i have to waste my day off finding a new psychiatrist.

im pissed bc i went to the beach and couldnt enjoy it.

im pissed bc i cant cry.

im pissed bc i hid my melatonin when i was in mania and now i cant find it anywhere and

im pissed at how stupid that sounds.

im pissed bc this is out of my control.

im pissed bc i want to be alone but i also dont.

im pissed bc my head hurts and my skin is itchy and i cant sit still bc im so fucking mad.

im pissed bc i keep thinking i should just sleep today away so i dont have to deal w it and

im pissed bc i cant sleep without melatonin bc my saroquel is so low and

im pissed bc i dont know what to do to make it better.

im pissed bc i HAVE SHIT TO DO and i CANT DO IT.

im pissed bc i want to be LIVING MY FUCKING LIFE instead of DEALING W THE SHIT IN MY HEAD.

im pissed off.

dont talk to me.

or maybe do idk.

probably dont.

the sun was being stupid my brain is being stupid everything is stupid

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