today, i am pissed ofF —

im pissed bc i have to deal w this bipolar SHIT.

im pissed bc i have to waste my day off finding a new psychiatrist.

im pissed bc i went to the beach and couldnt enjoy it.

im pissed bc i cant cry.

im pissed bc i hid my melatonin when i was in mania and now i cant find it anywhere and

im pissed at how stupid that sounds.

im pissed bc this is out of my control.

im pissed bc i want to be alone but i also dont.

im pissed bc my head hurts and my skin is itchy and i cant sit still bc im so fucking mad.

im pissed bc i keep thinking i should just sleep today away so i dont have to deal w it and

im pissed bc i cant sleep without melatonin bc my saroquel is so low and

im pissed bc i dont know what to do to make it better.

im pissed bc i HAVE SHIT TO DO and i CANT DO IT.

im pissed bc i want to be LIVING MY FUCKING LIFE instead of DEALING W THE SHIT IN MY HEAD.

im pissed off.

dont talk to me.

or maybe do idk.

probably dont.