i don’t want to be mean.
i don’t want to be evil.
so i am not.
bc i don’t want to be evil,
i am not evil.
i am not evil.
come out of your cave
walking on your hands
as i am walking on
my hands
my face
my back.
i am open.
i am true.
i am raw.
i am real.
i am you.
i am true.
i am us.
we can do this.
we are doing this.
we are fighting
the good fight —
we are marching/
sometimes blindly,
but always truly,
toward what we want
and what we deserve
and what we love —
we are marching
toward each other
for each other
bc we are each other.
do you feel us marching?
do you hear us marching?
tune in.
share your story w me
as i am sharing mine
as i write it.
bc this is my story
while it is yours, too,
sure and of course,
but, like —
get your own hahaha
don’t live through me.
i don’t want that.
you don’t want that.
you deserve more than that.
you deserve the universe
and i want to give that
to you.
don’t be afraid to die
bc you will always be
re-born
better than you
were
before.
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read at your own pace,
please.
listen to what im about
to drop
at your own pace.
and as im writing this,
im realizing i should have
dropped it and then warned
you that i was going to
drop it
because, dude?
idk if you’ve realized this
yet,
but im writing
my story ass fucking
backwards.
hahahahawpuwhdwd
im writing backwards.
im doing this backwards,
bc I’ve always done everything
backwards.
id always felt backwards,
but there is nothing wrong
w backwards.
there is so much beauty in
being built backwards.
don’t fear going backwards
just as you strive
going forward.
do both. be both.
be better.
do better.
we are better
than what we are now,
and there’s always,
always room for
improvement.
no one is perfect.
no one is perfect.
no one is perfect.
and thats what i had
to learn today.
rae!!! you’re doing it!!!
you’re growing!!!!!
YOURE GROWING
EVERY DAY IN HUGE WAYS —
we all are. bc we are unafraid.
bc we are the soldiers rn.
you and me.
me and you.
and we are unafraid.
////
so proud of you, dude.
you were scared today —
really scared at times.
but you trusted in yourself
and the process
and your blog
in order to be okay
and figure your shit out.
just as you have always done,
and just as you will always
do.
you just do.
you’re so cool, dude.
you amaze me every day
w your growth bc you’re
fighting the good fight
and you’re putting in the
work
every day.
it is work.
this is really hard work —
everyone’s work is equally
hard.
unless s/he/they aren’t
being challenged.
then thats not work.
thats not work at all.
/////
all play and no work
makes jill a
fucking idiot.
///
you’re not a waste
of space
of time
of anything.
you’re not a waste.
you’re not a waste
of anything at all
ever
bc you are you, and
you are amazing.
