i don’t want to be mean.

i don’t want to be evil.

so i am not.

bc i don’t want to be evil,

i am not evil.

i am not evil.

come out of your cave

walking on your hands

as i am walking on

my hands

my face

my back.

i am open.

i am true.

i am raw.

i am real.

i am you.

i am true.

i am us.

we can do this.

we are doing this.

we are fighting

the good fight —

we are marching/

sometimes blindly,

but always truly,

toward what we want

and what we deserve

and what we love —

we are marching

toward each other

for each other

bc we are each other.

do you feel us marching?

do you hear us marching?

tune in.

share your story w me

as i am sharing mine

as i write it.

bc this is my story

while it is yours, too,

sure and of course,

but, like —

get your own hahaha

don’t live through me.

i don’t want that.

you don’t want that.

you deserve more than that.

you deserve the universe

and i want to give that

to you.

don’t be afraid to die

bc you will always be

re-born

better than you

were

before.

/////

read at your own pace,

please.

listen to what im about

to drop

at your own pace.

and as im writing this,

im realizing i should have

dropped it and then warned

you that i was going to

drop it

because, dude?

idk if you’ve realized this

yet,

but im writing

my story ass fucking

backwards.

hahahahawpuwhdwd

im writing backwards.

im doing this backwards,

bc I’ve always done everything

backwards.

id always felt backwards,

but there is nothing wrong

w backwards.

there is so much beauty in

being built backwards.

don’t fear going backwards

just as you strive

going forward.

do both. be both.

be better.

do better.

we are better

than what we are now,

and there’s always,

always room for

improvement.

no one is perfect.

no one is perfect.

no one is perfect.

and thats what i had

to learn today.

rae!!! you’re doing it!!!

you’re growing!!!!!

YOURE GROWING

EVERY DAY IN HUGE WAYS —

we all are. bc we are unafraid.

bc we are the soldiers rn.

you and me.

me and you.

and we are unafraid.

////

so proud of you, dude.

you were scared today —

really scared at times.

but you trusted in yourself

and the process

and your blog

in order to be okay

and figure your shit out.

just as you have always done,

and just as you will always

do.

you just do.

you’re so cool, dude.

you amaze me every day

w your growth bc you’re

fighting the good fight

and you’re putting in the

work

every day.

it is work.

this is really hard work —

everyone’s work is equally

hard.

unless s/he/they aren’t

being challenged.

then thats not work.

thats not work at all.

/////

all play and no work

makes jill a

fucking idiot.

///

you’re not a waste

of space

of time

of anything.

you’re not a waste.

you’re not a waste

of anything at all

ever

bc you are you, and

you are amazing.