sometimes my anxiety gets so loud that i cant think or breathe and i forget to breathe and i almost pass out like i actually almost pass out a lot and i didnt know that about myself and im pretty scared of passing out bc that means im just super not listening to my body

/////

listen to yr bod, boo.

be good to yourself.

breathe.

breathe in,

and push it all out —

force it out.

blow it out hard

like you mean it.

get all the bad air

out of there and trust

that you can fill it

with new, fresh,

full air.

replenish yourself.

dont worry when your

heart starts racing

or your palms start sweating

or your voice starts cracking

or the voice inside your

head gets too loud.

dont shut it out.

dont shut it out —

its okay.

////

rae —

hey. come back.

come back.

youre okay.

hey!

hey.

why arent you listening to me?

rae, chill. chill the fuck out.

just chill out.

youre okay.

just be cool cool cool.

youre cool cool.

maybe you gotta

step back for a second

and thats okay.

focus on mom and gaga

coming — theyre on a plane!!!

theyre coming to LA

bc they love you and

you need to see a therapist.

you need to see a therapist.

you need to talk to

someone who understands you.

maybe you need to talk to

Tobin?

maybe you need to talk to

Tobin.

im not sure yet.

you have to talk to someone.

you have to protect yourself

and listen to yourself

and not run from this.

stop running.

listen to yourself.

hey. rae. home gurl.

you aight.

you fine fine fine.

you is fine, duder.

im for serious.

im serious.

chill.

breathe.

maybe sleep if you can —

hahahahhaa

youve beverage

——- what??

i meant to type “been”

but my phone typed

beverage.

freudian slip but through

my phone??????

who knows.

ugh, im tired.

my brain is tired.

i’m sorry, brain.

thank you, brain.

i appreciate you, brain.

rae,

youve never been able

to sleep, but sleep is

important.

everything is important.

man, my head hurts,

but ive always liked pain

a little bit

😏

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s