sometimes my anxiety gets so loud that i cant think or breathe and i forget to breathe and i almost pass out like i actually almost pass out a lot and i didnt know that about myself and im pretty scared of passing out bc that means im just super not listening to my body
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listen to yr bod, boo.
be good to yourself.
breathe.
breathe in,
and push it all out —
force it out.
blow it out hard
like you mean it.
get all the bad air
out of there and trust
that you can fill it
with new, fresh,
full air.
replenish yourself.
dont worry when your
heart starts racing
or your palms start sweating
or your voice starts cracking
or the voice inside your
head gets too loud.
dont shut it out.
dont shut it out —
its okay.
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rae —
hey. come back.
come back.
youre okay.
hey!
hey.
why arent you listening to me?
rae, chill. chill the fuck out.
just chill out.
youre okay.
just be cool cool cool.
youre cool cool.
maybe you gotta
step back for a second
and thats okay.
focus on mom and gaga
coming — theyre on a plane!!!
theyre coming to LA
bc they love you and
you need to see a therapist.
you need to see a therapist.
you need to talk to
someone who understands you.
maybe you need to talk to
Tobin?
maybe you need to talk to
Tobin.
im not sure yet.
you have to talk to someone.
you have to protect yourself
and listen to yourself
and not run from this.
stop running.
listen to yourself.
hey. rae. home gurl.
you aight.
you fine fine fine.
you is fine, duder.
im for serious.
im serious.
chill.
breathe.
maybe sleep if you can —
hahahahhaa
youve beverage
——- what??
i meant to type “been”
but my phone typed
beverage.
freudian slip but through
my phone??????
who knows.
ugh, im tired.
my brain is tired.
i’m sorry, brain.
thank you, brain.
i appreciate you, brain.
rae,
youve never been able
to sleep, but sleep is
important.
everything is important.
man, my head hurts,
but ive always liked pain
a little bit
😏
