because it’s playing.
this song is supposed to be playing
because it is playing.
this song is supposed to be playing
because i opened ethan and my playlist
(because we have one)
(and it’s perfect)
(bc we’re perfect)
(God, you’re perfect, Ethan.)
(hear me when i say that,
because it’s true.)
(thank you for loving me.)
on my computer and hit shuffle
and it came up.
and then i realized that our playlist
hadn’t updated on my computer yet
(i write everything on my phone
but i’m on my computer now
bc i’m about to drop the bomb.
i’m about to drop the link from
the moment i broke through.
i’m going to show you
my psychotic break —
all of my fear —
the last drop of everything
i was hiding from/
running from
because i know that if i show
you
myself,
then you’ll see yourself, too.)
but, first!
lemme take a selfie!
HAH.
MY GOD.
just kidding — i’m not that annoying.
but i am going to finish
what i was saying before
i drop the link —
drop the link
(that’s what the kids say,
in case you didn’t know that)
RAE – FOCUS.
STOP LISTENING TO ETHAN SING.
ethan, thanks for stopping singing
so i can focus???
how did you do that??
“i have a dog poop bag in my
back pocket” — Ethan just now,
randomly and out of the blue.
God, I love you, Ethan
in ways I could never/
have never/
loved anyone else.
RAE! FOCUS, GIRL!
enjoy the love of your life —
because he is —
i know that to be true —
enjoy the love of your life,
but save the world, too!
work to save yourself.
work to save everyone.
just keep working.
keep reading.
okay, back to what i was saying —
this song came on when i
opened my computer and
hit shuffle.
and then this same song came
on when i closed Spotify/
re-opened it to update our playlist/
and hit shuffle.
this song was supposed to be playing
for us
in that moment.
maybe you need to hear it.
maybe you need to listen.
(you need to listen.)