because it’s playing.

this song is supposed to be playing

because it is playing.

this song is supposed to be playing

because i opened ethan and my playlist

(because we have one)

(and it’s perfect)

(bc we’re perfect)

(God, you’re perfect, Ethan.)

(hear me when i say that,

because it’s true.)

(thank you for loving me.)

on my computer and hit shuffle

and it came up.

and then i realized that our playlist

hadn’t updated on my computer yet

(i write everything on my phone

but i’m on my computer now

bc i’m about to drop the bomb.

i’m about to drop the link from

the moment i broke through.

i’m going to show you

my psychotic break —

all of my fear —

the last drop of everything

i was hiding from/

running from

because i know that if i show

you

myself,

then you’ll see yourself, too.)

but, first!

lemme take a selfie!

HAH.

MY GOD.

just kidding — i’m not that annoying.

but i am going to finish

what i was saying before

i drop the link —

drop the link

(that’s what the kids say,

in case you didn’t know that)

RAE – FOCUS.

STOP LISTENING TO ETHAN SING.

ethan, thanks for stopping singing

so i can focus???

how did you do that??

“i have a dog poop bag in my

back pocket” — Ethan just now,

randomly and out of the blue.

God, I love you, Ethan

in ways I could never/

have never/

loved anyone else.

RAE! FOCUS, GIRL!

enjoy the love of your life —

because he is —

i know that to be true —

enjoy the love of your life,

but save the world, too!

work to save yourself.

work to save everyone.

just keep working.

keep reading.

okay, back to what i was saying —

this song came on when i

opened my computer and

hit shuffle.

and then this same song came

on when i closed Spotify/

re-opened it to update our playlist/

and hit shuffle.

this song was supposed to be playing

for us

in that moment.

maybe you need to hear it.

maybe you need to listen.

(you need to listen.)