feeling raw

feeling out of control

man, is that like clockwork, or what?

heart cant slow down

thoughts wont slow down

feeling nauseous.

cant be in the moment.

reeling————-

money.

boys.

leah.

body.

none of this should be sending me into a spiral,

but it is.

again.

jesus, the same shit.

im so sick of it.

im frustrated with myself.

im frustrated with my anxiety.

im frustrated with the people in my life.

displacement? or is it fair?

“youre too hard on people”

yeah, i know.

im harder on myself, so.

^not sound reasoning.

i feel stagnant.

i feel lost.

im starting to isolate myself.

i know what this means.

i have to fight it off

work with it

keep moving forward.

you cant always run home.