- getting lost in music//finding a really good new song
- jumping into my bed when the covers are cold
- dancing in the car with my best friends
- writing something i think is really good
- casually walking outside alone listening to a good song
- trying something on and liking what i see in the mirror
- getting home and eating chips and queso
- after i finish a workout
- talking to my mom and making her laugh
- going to a concert
- taking back roads at night when i don’t have to be anywhere
- people watching when I’m in an inquisitive mood
- a clean room
- waking up to a text from someone i didn’t know i wanted to text me
- finding something that’s totally “my brand”
- being told i did a good job
- making someone laugh
- the first sip of a cold diet coke
- crying in the shower
- saving a lot of money
- being around life and movement
- when everyone in church recites a prayer
- when i interject something when someone is talking and he or she says “exactly”
- sitting outside wrapped up in a blanket at night
- electronic music
- good hair days
- sitting by a lake
I JUST CALLED MOM BECAUSE TODAY IS A GOOD DAY. SHE TOLD ME I’M TURNING INTO A DAD — MEANS FOR A BETTER DAY.
WOKE UP. SHOWERED. LOOKED OVER MY STUDY GUIDE A LIL BIT. TOOK MY FIRST MARKETING EXAM OF THE MINI — I THINK I ONLY MISSED TWO. GOT AN EMAIL FROM CCAC INDICATING I’LL BE ABLE TO TAKE THE COURSES I WANT TO TAKE. I HAVE SO MUCH ENERGY I’M FULL TO THE BRIM. I’M SMILEY AND LIGHT AND HAPPY AND DANCEY AND SILLY. IM SO HAPPY. WHAT A GOOD DAY. I GET TO SEE GABRIELLE AT KHAO THAI TONIGHT. I THINK I’M GOING TO A ZUMBATHON WITH SHANNON BEFORE THAT. WHO KNOWS WHAT ELSE THE NIGHT HAS IN STORE? LIFE IS A MYSTERY TO BE UNCOVERED, NOT A PROBLEM TO BE SOLVED.
WHAT A GREAT DAY. MORE UPDATES TO COME UNLESS I DIE TRAGICALLY IN THE COMING HOURS.
today im mad. im not hurting, im not sad — im angry. im pissed off.
im uncomfortable. im itchy. im hot. i have a headache. im fucking pissed off.
im mad at all the people in this world and in my life.
AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW FREAKIN’ CUTE BRODY JENNER IS I MEAN SPEAR ME IN THE FACE
my head hurts. i did nothing today. i barely talked to anyone. i barely left my room. i got nothing done bc i just dont care.
i wish i cared enough about literally anything to spend my time doing something even somewhat enjoyable or productive.
im a total sack of garbage i actually suck a lot. how many weeks left? like 6? hopefully after i get out of this environment ill be stimulated and motivated. and if not? MAN, am i fucked.