i dont know if i can finish out the semester.

i know i have to but i dont know if i can.

i hate being here more than anything it physically makes me sick like the anxiety i have walking around campus and being on campus is entirely, absolutely consuming.

what the fuck is wrong with me? why the fuck can everyone else do this but i cant?

ive been slipping and starting to miss classes. i hate being in my bed. i hate being in my room. i hate being alone but i feel like i have no choice even if i do have options. people text me all the time but i push them away for some reason. WHY. and then im alone and miserable and riddled with anxiety.

is this normal?????