maybe im not ready for a new relationship even though thats all i think i want

i cant sink into anyone new – im on the lookout for these guys’ flaws. granted, im finding them on tinder and they have a lot. so. im hoping if i found someone i actually connected with then id be able to let him in.  OR maybe ive given up all hope and ill never be able to let myself love again. 

i might ghost this brandon kid bc im pretty disgusted w most of what he says. 

im so lonely, though. like so lonely. 

what the fuck is wrong w me!!!