i think all i can do is lose weight and see where that gets me. i think im forgetting how much damage fat on a face can do. 

and until i lose the weight, i just have to live with looking like this. i have to accept myself and still be who i am and know that those who love me will still love me, right?

so i think im gonna actually start losing weight and just take a breather. no, im not happy with the way i look. and thats okay bc im doing something about it now. 

im going to change and im going to feel better in a little while.