i feel like total, total shit.

i dont feel like myself whether im around people or not

and its easier to not have to fake it when im alone so i guess ill just fucking do that.

i dont feel happy or at ease or comfortable with any people im with. it doesnt matter who im with im either wishing i was with someone else or wishing i was alone. and when im alone all i want is to be w someone.

ive never understood the saying “you need to love yourself before other people love you” until now. bc the truth is i did love myself. but i dont anymore. im questioning everything i thought i knew.

fuck, dude.