man i have never struggled this badly before.
ive struggled, definitely, but ive always had a firm grasp on who i was.
im not a designer. im not an athlete. im not an artist. im not a successful leader. im not a good judge of character. im not pretty. im not thin. im not good at handling people.
im not confident in anything i do, and im failing miserably at everything i try.
i dropped my graphics class today bc i couldnt hack it. she was running through the syllabus and i just stopped listening bc i knew i couldnt do it.
thats how ive handled everything lately. i havent had the strength or honestly willingness or willpower or whatever it is to try my hand at anything.
im having an identity crisis.
i hate this.
im so uncertain where ive always been certain.
i cry all the time.