and just like that –

my anxiety took a back seat.

my nausea faded.

my self hate drowned.

my self doubt ceased.

its looking like i have options now, and i dont have to make decisions based on trying to appease anyone else. i can do what i want to do bc ive cut the idea of you out of my life. i can wear what i want instead of adhering to your style. i can act how i want bc im not concerned whether or not youll like it. im gonna wear a lot of makeup and im gonna straighten my hair bc it makes me feel pretty, and idc if you think its trying too hard. im gonna go back to listening to the music you hate bc i found myself by listening to that music.

you’re irrelevant to me after all these months of mourning, and im free.


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